Yay sun was my b'dae and I spent it with the havocers and it was fun! this time didn't take lotsa pics tho, firstly cos' i was late, secondly cos' my face is still scarred hahaz. anyway i made my grand entrance and we could all finally order our food. then I got my prezzies!!! hahaz no points for guessing which was the one that i loved the most! oohz i juz love it!!!! AHH!!!!! Now I can look at Wu Zun gimme flowers everyday hahahaz.... oh and jiale baked cupcakes for us that were dense but still delicious. And the cafe waiters were very nice cos' they also sang b'dae song for me and gave me free brownie and it was juz the perfect brownie for a choco addict like me! then we went islands creamery to eat and oooohhhh i juz L-O-V-E ice cream sooooo much... *drools* ok and boon, i didn't purposely leap off my bicycle ok!! -hmph- say until like that hahaz

Yesterday met up with tingz and abi for dinner at crystal jade la mian and finally got to catch up... ok so there was a misunderstanding cos' yt tot i hate her and i was juz waiting for her to ask me out so hahaz thatz quite amusing i suppose but anyway gurl juz wanna tell u again I LOVE YOU!!!! =) and thanx gals i realli like the earrings a lot i'll wear them around! =)

special thanx to caiyun altho I dunno if you read my blog, but yea... I was sooo surprised when I received my b'dae prezzie from you through mail! hahaz this is the first time someone actually mailed me my prezzie! I'm soo touched! yay thanx lotz i love u gurl *MUAKZ*.

and thanx to everybody who sms-ed me happy b'dae too =) hahaz even the late one from tekong

okok so a few days back I coincidentally saw Chee Hui at Thiong Bahru Plaza after work on my way home. She actually waited for me to get down and suggested going home together, and she didn't even mind abt my limping. In fact, she very considerately suggested taking the bus and although many of the buses that came we could have taken and walked juz a little, she very nicely suggested waiting for 195 which stops right outside our building so that we dun even hafta walk at all. so throughout the whole time, we were talking, which I realise we haven't realli done since pri school. Ever since the last time I went her house to play monopoly in pri school, most of our "talking" have juz been brief catch-ups during the few times that we ran into each other, be it in the lift or on the street. All of a sudden, I realised how much I had missed this friend whom I loved so much in pri sch, and how much our lives had diverged from each other's paths since a long time ago. I learnt that shez now studying to do 3-D animations like the jap animes and it shouldn't have surprised me cos' she'd always been interested in mangas and such. In fact, I felt very proud of her, cos' she has finally settled down and finally, she knows what direction she wants to take for the rest of her life. She has matured into a young woman who knows what she wants and is actively pursuing it. She may seem the same on the outside, still the tom-boyish, disheveled Chee Hui that I knew in pri school, but she is no longer that floater who only lived for the moment and just knew that she loves to play. I am so so so proud of her. After we parted ways that day, I thought to myself, it would probably be very long, maybe even never that we get to sit down and talk together again; but I was still very very thankful for having had this chance to have a glimpse in her life now and I feel reassured that this friend of mine will turn out a-alright. This encounter with her triggered memories that I suppose had gotten buried somehow, and it suddenly hit me that I realli miss my pri sch friends a lot. However, it probably is too late to try to restore what had been, for our lives have been too different and we have experienced too much without each other's knowing and presence. Still, if it is too late to restore things back to the past, maybe it is still possible to work on a new beginning? So Stacy, Cindy, you muz wait for me! When I've recovered and have the opportunity, I shall begin on my quest for a whole new beginning! And Liyi and june and mel, we have kept in contact over the years, and I wanna thank you guys for not forgetting and abandoning me in just your memories. I'm especially thankful to you, Liyi, for constantly making the effort to remind me that you are there for me, and all I can say is sorry tat I have not matched up to you in trying to reach out. I know that you are there, and that you know I am always there for you, and I promise that I will make more effort to be more involved in your life and to show you that I do love you.

as we get on with our lives, isn't it sad that sometimes we tend to slowly but surely let go of our old friends? but I dun wanna let go so easily. Every close friend that I've had, I've invested lotsa emotions in loving you, and I want you to know that I do still love you. Even without being updated, without seeing you much, my love is as constant and real and solid as a rock.

since I'm on this topic and I'm feeling sentimental, I shall say it here then.. I suppose itz time that I matured and let go of past grudges. Whether it was you who let me down or me who let you down no longer matters. I guess time has eased the pain and hurt and what matters most is that we once had emotions for each other, that we were once each other's support. What may matter more, I suppose, is that with that foundation, it may very well be possible to start all over again, is it not? I guess what Arvin once told me really is true, even though at tat time I wanted it all to juz be a lie, "time changes a lot of things. It wears down emotions, it changes people." Although I'm using it in a different context now, I suppose the same applies. Time has made us more matured and stronger. It may wear down love, but it also wears down hate and pain, does it not? and yea, time changes things. What seemed impossible to us then might actually be possible now, simply because we have grown. So what say you? bottoms up to a new beginning? ; )

ok, in case I sound contradictory, time may wear down love for some, but not for me. To all my friends, I've said it and I shall say it again, my love for you is as real and solid and steady.

Chee Hui, AJA AJA FIGHTING!

and this is to joce, someone whom I have met up with only a few times now and then, but one who has held my hands when I was crying uncontrollably in front of gary tang, one who always encouraged me and provided support for me. Despite the countable times that we meet up, somehow we both know and revel in the fact that we both still love each other and tat we will always be that constant factor in each other's lives. For that I'm very thankful, and I wanna let you know that that will never change. We will always be the best of sisters! =) and I'm looking forward to may 3! hahaz

to a somebody who no longer reads my blog but I still wanna say this: I miss you. I miss laughing and fooling around with you, be it on the soccer field or the tennis court. We both knew that things would change the moment you got a gf, but no matter what I'm still thankful for the interlude that we had. It was one of the best friendships that I've had, in fact in my whole life you have been my second guy best friend. Even though we have ended our friendship, I still wanna say thank you for having been there for me in my darkest times, and that I am happy that you are so happy. For your happiness, it was worth the sacrifice =)

to the havocers, I love all of you! Whether you stay in Singapore or go overseas for uni, I believe in our friendship and I juz want you to know that even if you do go overseas, we will still be constant factors in each other's lives. The havocer ring is a daily reminder to me to thank heavens that I met each and every one of you, and my promise to you that my love only grows deeper as our friendship is like wine, it only gets better with time.

Ok I think I realli do sound like a sentimental idiot, so I shall stop here hahaz... maybe these few days of freedom I've had time to stop and think about lotsa stuff. Didn't go shopping today cos' it was raining, but oh well I WILL go shopping and I WILL get my doughnuts hahaz... kinda miss charl and tyz and the office, but oh well hahaz I also love slacking around and hahaz i got to eat my darling subway and kenny rogers.. hahaz may 5!! daytona yoz I'm gonna crash tyz's car! lol